you wouldn't believe it. im awesome!;

IM VAL AND PPL SAY IM MAD. ~~WHAT DO U THINK?~~
ARHH! SHUTUP AND JUST EAT THE LOLLIPOP!

there's no link, but baybeh you're awesome! ((;
Monday, October 30, 2006

hey there.
i can see yr underwear.

look at the time!04:44 its orange!

IM VAL AND PPL SAY IM MAD. ~~WHAT DO U THINK?~~
ARHH! SHUTUP AND JUST EAT THE LOLLIPOP!

there's no link, but baybeh you're awesome! ((;
Friday, October 27, 2006

watched the notebook today
yongwen says its porn. he has the uncensored dvd.
i watched it on hbo.
nice show all about romance and how love can do alot of things.
ya i cried. its nice.

and ryan is hot!!
no not ryan christopher!!
ryan gosling!! handsome man!!

he is so good looking!!

look at the time!22:40 its orange!

IM VAL AND PPL SAY IM MAD. ~~WHAT DO U THINK?~~
ARHH! SHUTUP AND JUST EAT THE LOLLIPOP!

there's no link, but baybeh you're awesome! ((;
Tuesday, October 24, 2006

cant wait for confirmation. i really want to be closer to god and his family.
got a nice dress and a nice pair of shoes or slippers. whatever u call a nice pair of things u wear at yr foot. i mean feet. foot is one right ya? i have two so feet.
thn mummy helped me make up on today.. to try. ahh!! my eyes look so big and i did look kinda nice aha!! ok i dont think i'll be wearing glasses on tht day. im so excited. hey you reading this are you coming for my confirmation?

5 nov sunday
11 am mass
st annes church

if u want to take a pic with me u can. and gene u can have a hug if u want to. exclusive for tht day. aha!!

look at the time!05:37 its orange!

IM VAL AND PPL SAY IM MAD. ~~WHAT DO U THINK?~~
ARHH! SHUTUP AND JUST EAT THE LOLLIPOP!

there's no link, but baybeh you're awesome! ((;
Sunday, October 22, 2006

confirmation is exactly two weeks time.
shit i cant wait la.
who's excited too? scream!!
eh im so excited bought the clothes
shoes everything.

rhinos really have two horns meh?

ahh!! i want to go for the batam trip.
i want to go. but mum says its dangerous.
but u know she say : its gd tht u want to go
but it dangerous.
but when i told the stories about the young children who are suffering there.
she almost cried leh.
emotional hah.
now i know how come im so emotional.
so i really hope i can go man.

church ppl are fun to be with.
i just hope our friendship nv end.

look at the time!18:22 its orange!

IM VAL AND PPL SAY IM MAD. ~~WHAT DO U THINK?~~
ARHH! SHUTUP AND JUST EAT THE LOLLIPOP!

there's no link, but baybeh you're awesome! ((;
Saturday, October 21, 2006

its so sad tht you have to be this way you know.
i dont understand why u are like writing this la.
he gave you life and everything u ever have.
even tht stupid idiot u call gf.
i dont know if i should like avoid u or continue talking to you.
should i start talking about god?
should i let u just mock him.
its really disturbing.
satan's the one you should totally be scolding.
hate him. you've gotten it all wrong man.

look at the time!21:33 its orange!

IM VAL AND PPL SAY IM MAD. ~~WHAT DO U THINK?~~
ARHH! SHUTUP AND JUST EAT THE LOLLIPOP!

there's no link, but baybeh you're awesome! ((;
Friday, October 20, 2006

still coughing.. im so trashing ppl at bejewel la. ppl like rico!!
aha!! too bad ryan cant play.
ok do u know how to spell flam? no flam is spelled like this.. phlegm.
cool ae. ok la i didn know la. my fault ar? ok so it is. ok nvm thn answer this..
what is phlegm?
what's it for?
how did it get in my throat?
what's it doing there?
why is it tickling me?
why does it taste like tht?
and tht colour? texture?
it kinda looks like tofu.
yuck!! gosh!! so here's a poem..

since ryan thought me the real way of spelling flam..
i shall edit my poem..

phlegm phlegm phlegm
dont think they've got a plan.
and they just wont scram.
it taste nothing like ham.
so what's flam?
its even worse thn cramp.
i dont know but i just dont like them.

ok i should be a poet right? ok nvm.

look at the time!00:50 its orange!

IM VAL AND PPL SAY IM MAD. ~~WHAT DO U THINK?~~
ARHH! SHUTUP AND JUST EAT THE LOLLIPOP!

there's no link, but baybeh you're awesome! ((;
Thursday, October 19, 2006

ryan's a vampire!!
aha!! a vampire he is.

look at the time!08:41 its orange!

IM VAL AND PPL SAY IM MAD. ~~WHAT DO U THINK?~~
ARHH! SHUTUP AND JUST EAT THE LOLLIPOP!

there's no link, but baybeh you're awesome! ((;
Tuesday, October 17, 2006

sometimes i just feel so left out. everywhere. always. im like meant to stand out never supposed to blend in.
and why am i so emotional. why am i always crying? over such a lil stuff. even when im wrong and i hurt others i cry. when im not allowed to go out and i real want to, i feel like crying. when i lose a game, i get frustrated and i always want to win.sometimes i end up crying when the winner keeps saying tht their the winner. but thts exactly what i do when i win. im such a hypocrite. a follower.. whatever ppl feel like doing thn i would follow. i hate it. i can never be alone. not independent. can never ever do anything right. making all useless comments,trying to help.. but always end up hurting others. which would lead me to cry sometimes. why am i so flimpsy. so insecure. whats up will jealousy? i get so jealous easily.. even when a friend gets closer to another of her friends, or like if some one has is talking to me and another person.. he has more fun with the other person. i dont know what im jealous of? their friendship? the attention? i dont know. i just dont fit anywhere. not in class. they say we're a family and all.. but.. i always cease to feel extra. in ycs especially. church.. eventually. nothing good ever last long in my life. everytime i get close to a friend.. he just slips away. i really want to fit in and all.. like in ycs..i think its because i dont try.. to make friends. and im really shy.. but im actually not.. just tht i always think too much.. i can fit in well.. i usually cant take the first step to talk to others. and just seeing them frm cat high frm st nicks and all so close.. its really a sight to envy.. even if i would have a day with them.. i'll be so thankful, i just hope jesus can make my life alil easier? i really hope to have more courage more independence more strength to persist and carry on in life. jesus pls help me not to be afraid.. help me to have courage.. to have more control in life. please draw me closer to you. please allow me to make the better choices in life. thank you jesus for all the friend and opportunities i have.. pls help me to use these chances you give me to my advantage to make my life a better one allowing me to cultivate a better relationship with you lord.

look at the time!05:50 its orange!

IM VAL AND PPL SAY IM MAD. ~~WHAT DO U THINK?~~
ARHH! SHUTUP AND JUST EAT THE LOLLIPOP!

there's no link, but baybeh you're awesome! ((;

friday thirteenth.
denyse's birthday. i ended school thn i rushed to church. everyone else those who were home early and didn have school.. ppl like ashley. were late. so me dion brandon ashley took a bus there to pasir ris. it was a bbq u see. ya. okok.. FF>> piew ok aftr fast forwarding..

ooh we reached there aftr getting lost in pasir ris. and btw it was friday!! so i was so persistent not to eat meat, i even ate fish egg and veg for recess ok and my rice. no meat ok. and it was a bbq.. shit i was so tempted to eat la. ok until u guys see how big the fire was. it wasnt!!it kept going off. until.. caleb gwen rico berwin came. mostly it was rico who started blowing at the fire.. ok i shouldn say fire. cause there wasn one. erm blowing at the charcoal?? ok sounds right now. ok we had so much fun cooking la. playing laughing. caleb was like going around with his black sotong. asking ppl to try. he even told den's friend if she didn like it. he would take of his pants and round around.

friend:what's wrong with the sotong?
caleb:nothing just try
friend trys
friend:nice leh
den: why you say nice? say not nice thn he has to take off his pants
i said:why on earth would u want to see him take off his pants?

heh!! wonder why ya. herher.

ok thn we ended up playing in the sand. we started digging a hole and thn started burning tissue and all. thn the rest started writing stuff on the sand. thn!! we went to play. ryan and his joined us. we atarted playing on the ufo. it looked like a ufo. when it spins and spins. ash was like left up ther hanging and the rest started turning him. [ryan fell twice] trying to push the flying object. ok he wasn flying but.. nvm.
ok thn we all started lying down on the metal ballt hingy tht i actually like a small version of the big ufo. ya.
ok la. erm.. dion was beside berwin i was lying on berwin's shoulder, (which was comfortable) caleb was lying on my arm/slash shoulder. gwen was lying on him... and i have no idea who else was there but.. it was fun. we all looking upwards.. but.. the trees were blocking the sky so we were tree watching?? i dont know what u call it. but here are some photos. cookie monster(rico) , brandon, ryan, ryan's friend was disturbing each other. ok whatever!!

caleb looks squashed.

as u can see. berwin's lousy at taking pics. only took the three of us. but nvm.. its still nice.
and caleb wong wen de i totally semlt like you aftr u lied on my sleeve. and thanks for bringing me home tht night. ohya we had a wonderful walk back to the bus stop before going up the bus. i scared rico with a lizard. aha!! it was prett small but.. rico didn seem to care. he was too busy trying to run away. aha!! it was a fun filled day full of laughter and excitement. wee!!

look at the time!02:56 its orange!

IM VAL AND PPL SAY IM MAD. ~~WHAT DO U THINK?~~
ARHH! SHUTUP AND JUST EAT THE LOLLIPOP!

there's no link, but baybeh you're awesome! ((;
Thursday, October 12, 2006

ytd. no school marking. mostly a waste of time. doing nonsensical things. watching spongebob and having my own fun with myself, since my bro had to go to school.but yongwen did good. we started playing with our webcams mics.. play msn games. he practically trashed me in everything except bejewel!! aha!! checkers minesweeper flags hexic solitaire.. even quarto tht we both didn know how to play. he kept winning.nvm its good for him. he has such a big ego.aha!! woops!!

now today got so many papers back. i did well for chinese aha!! not!! ok i got 39 1 more thn mid year. even darence got 50 when he had only 3 components. whn i got 4 i still failed!! whathe!! ohmy!! pathetic la. ok so i passed maths. didn do tht well, fnn passed not proud of it.. but i really hope when it all adds tgt. i will do gd. but science was the shocker. chem i failed!! okok thts normal relax. physics!! i got EIGHTY-TWO baby!! woah!! ok even thou fj got 90 but i got 82!! woah!! ok u can tell it a bang to me right?? im so happy la even though chem pulled my science grade to 56?? what?? another big shocker there!! so angry.hate chem evenmore. ok i should totally thank my brother for helping me in physics la. its like so incredible. the feeling is like so amazing. if only physics was its own subject. if only all the if onlys were true. ya man. cant wait to tell the world about it man. the useless valerie got an 82 for physics!! wuhoo!! PRAISE THE LORD!!
love the lord he rock my socks even if im not wearing any.

look at the time!02:34 its orange!

IM VAL AND PPL SAY IM MAD. ~~WHAT DO U THINK?~~
ARHH! SHUTUP AND JUST EAT THE LOLLIPOP!

there's no link, but baybeh you're awesome! ((;
Friday, October 06, 2006

today was history and english paper2. it was ok la. but i felt tht i could have done better. i want to talk to him like last time, but i feel tht now is better. but i myself know that i'll be happier when he's around me.

i still believe what i believe!! no one will feel the same. you ppl think im all happy and fun. but not always.. just hoping was life was just like tht. fun games and happiness. ya right!! whatever screw love.

ok lets talk about god. god is amazing dont you think? he's love is the one tht's unconditional and evrlasting.
you say u love tht someone forever and all. nothing's forever, no love can last forever.. yr love can be wonderful so amazing and all but it can never be as much as god's love for us. he died on the cross for us. for me!! sometimes when there's prayers and rallys or reflection time about god.. i always feel tht having material things and having a boyfriend.. having a gd time and all aint tht important. like tht time during salt.. they asked what is put first in life. i put god family friends... so on la. but i think to myself. i put god and church as the most important.. but why do i spent tht 1 hour in mass talking laughing. rico says we're young and all.. but is tht an excuse? i rather use thn 1 hour talking to my friends eventhough i know i'll be able to spebt the whole aftrnoon with them. i tell myself sometimes.. ok i must concentrate.. dont talk to amerie dont talk to rico.. dont talk to anyone. concentrate on what i go to church for.. god!! i try ok mayb i dont try hard enough or i give up easily. but everytime i find myself talking the whole way through mass.. disturbing other ppl. thn i end up saying sorry to god. i always hurt the ppl around me with all my rubbish and noise. its not my fault im so noisy. ok going back to my topic..god will love you no matter what.. not matter how you dress no matter what you look like and all. friends are v nice.. caring understanding and all.. but if u have BO or dandruff or u are fat or have an irritating laughter or a boastful character. friends or ppl might shun you. god wont. im guilty of tht too. we're not perfect so we should always forgive others. cause we would want someone to forgive us wjen we do something wrong. please forgive me lord for everything i've done wrong in life. and everything i've done and sinned. thnks lord for everything. and st anthony. you never cease to amaze me. you are so wonderful.

btw im getting confirmed soon.. on the 5 of nov. my confirmation name will be gabrielle. wuhoo!! sing gabrielle valerie. ((;

look at the time!03:27 its orange!